Category Archives: Personal

Ramadan Kareem

I wanted to discuss a few things that tend to occur in Ramadan but I remembered that I had an older post that basically covered the main points! The only difference is that the list for this year’s TV shows are far more extensive than last year’s. However, Tash Ma Tash, the most famous Saudi TV show, will not be airing this Ramadan. It finally came to an end after 15 successful seasons. I personally wasn’t one of the shows enthusiasts but I have to acknowledge that it did touch on many important topics and shed some light on multiple issues that we suffer from in our country. Nassir Al-Gasabi and Abdullah Al-Sadhan will be appearing in a new show called Kolna Eyal Garya. I personally hardly ever watch TV in Ramadan because I believe there is more to do in this month than be glued to a TV screen.

Inshallah I get to pray Taraweeh every night. Inshallah I get to finish reading the Qur’an once at least. I also intend to start studying some of things we’ll be  taking next year so that I’m fully prepared when it begins because it is the final year and the most important one. I hope that we get to finally work on our new volunteer organization that aims to help the medical students become better doctors. I’m also going to be involved in a major health education campaign starting in Shawal so that needs work too. I need to lose 5 kilos at least this month! Stupid exams weight still didn’t go!

Oh well, as you see, it’s going to be a busy Ramadan. May you enjoy it all :)

Wasted Talents

I’m not a professional critic. I’m not even a professional writer. However, throughout the years, I’ve read thousands of novels, poems, short stories, articles and basically anything that is readable, both in Arabic and English. I would like to think that I can recognize a talented writer when I come across his or her work.

There are many talented Saudi writers out there who post their creations online be it though personal blogs, literature sites, forums and social networking sites. Unfortunately, they lack the proper exposure they deserve. Some of those writers are more professional and better skilled than a lot of those who are well publicized. Online publishing is still a long way from replacing or even equaling the conventional way of publishing. Books, newspapers and magazines remain the main method of delivering written creativity to people.

Back to those writers I was talking about, some of them have extraordinary talents and it’s a shame that their words are restricted to a certain demographic group. I think they are indeed wasted talents. There should be some kind of organization that includes them, takes care of them, protects their rights. helps them improve and ultimately assists in turning them into well-rounded professional writers. The Ministry of Culture and Media should be involved, too.

I have a group o Facebook named Saudi Writers in which any Saudi aspiring writer can post his or her work. I have seen first hand what some of the youth of this country can create whether in the group or on various blogs and forums that I frequent. I’m truly amazed and inspired by some of the works I’ve had the honor of reading.

One of my future goals is starting my own publishing firm and writers organization inshallah in order to support any person out there with a talent that needs a little bit of nourishment. It’s still a small dream. I do believe though that is has a chance of becoming true because there is a demand for the written word and more people are becoming readers every single day.

For now, keep writing and reading :-)

A New Beginning

BassemKurdi.com… hmm, doesn’t it sound awfully egotistical to have a domain in my name? Well, the reason behind that is to have a place of my own in which I could publish my stories, poems and creative writings in addition to blogging about many different things, all under my name. I have stumbled upon some of my writings being shared online and sometimes printed and distributed around without any due credit to me or in instances, stolen and claimed to be written by someone else.

If you read my last post about Getting Published, you’ll see that it has proven to be more difficult than I have expected it to be. I had refrained form posting the last 5 chapters of Layla online because I thought it would be better to keep them until the story is published in a book but I have changed my mind. If you click on Layla, you’ll find the complete story there written in 29 chapters. I hope you enjoy reading it and your comments regarding the entire story and how it concluded will be much appreciated.

So, here’s to a new beginning. Bookmark the site, update your links and tell everyone about it, please ;)

Getting Published.

As many of you know, The Story of Layla is my first attempt at writing a novel. I would like to think that I can say with pride that it has managed to acquire the attention of many readers and in the process I was blessed to have fans, if I can call them that, who follow my writings. On the 5th of August, 2007, Layla was concluded and I thought the next step was to get it published. I had such high hopes that publishing it wouldn’t be that difficult especially following the overwhelming response from everyone who has read it. I was wrong.

I contacted many publishing houses here in Saudi Arabia and most of them refused to even take a look at the story attributing that to the fact that I’m a first time author and most aren’t interested in publishing for new writers. The remaining few didn’t show interest in the story simply because it’s written in English and they obviously don’t think there’s a market for such novels or that it is the company’s policy.

When I finally managed to meet someone who’s willing to take the time to read a few pages, he stated his admiration of my work but also told me that there’s nothing we can do about it since the Ministry of Culture and Information will surely reject it for being too “sexual.” I said that I’m willing to edit parts of the story if that’s what it takes but he told me the ministry rarely accept drafts similar to this. He advised me to try to contact publishing houses from Egypt or Lebanon.

I contacted Dar Al-Saqi, the famous Lebanese publishing house, and they have responded rather enthusiastically . I sent them the original story and a couple of months later they politely apologized for not being able to publish it since “their list of to be published English titles are practically full for another year at least.” I don’t know if that was a real excuse or simply a way of letting me down easy but I didn’t take it to heart.

I still hope that one day I get to publish Layla in addition to a book containing a collection of my poems. It’s not arrogance or anything like it but I truly believe that my writings are better than countless titles, whether Arabic or English, sitting on bookshelves right this moment.

Anyhow, if you know of any publishing houses whether here in Saudi Arabia or abroad then please contact me on my email: Bassem.kurdi@gmail.com and let me know. Thank you.

This is old news that I haven’t posted here before: I’ve been included in an article for Vancouver Sun newspaper regarding using Facebook and the Internet as the new way of publishing stories and reaching readers. Read the story.

Thankful

My results were posted today. Mashallah wo Alhamdellah I did extremely well. I’m proud of myself and at the same time thinking, first place wasn’t that impossible. Next year, I can, I should and I will get it be’ezn Ellah. Anyhow, for now I’ll make sure to relax, GET SOME SLEEP and enjoy the summer.

Summer plans? I’m going to be training at King Fahd Armed Forces Hospital in August inshallah, doing Pediatrics and Surgery, 2 weeks each. I have an appointment for an American Visa on August the 2nd. If I get it I’ll be going to Washington DC. on September 1st. We’ll decide what happens next once we get there.

قال الله تعالى: ( وَمَا رَمَيْت إِذْ رَمَيْت وَلَكِنَّ اللَّه رَمَى) الأنفال – آية 17
وقال تعالى: ( إِنَّا لَا نُضِيعُ أَجْرَ مَنْ أَحْسَنَ عَمَلًا ) الكهف – آية 30

One More Year…

So I’m a 6th year student now, a big boy, finally! I finished my exams 2 days ago and I’m still trying to recover from what has been a long and traumatizing year to me personally on many different levels. Al7amdellah 3la kol 7al as I always like to say. If I didn’t have faith and belief that God shall not let any good deed go unrewarded, I’d have lost my mind. Anyhow, I’m still awaiting my results and until I see them with my own eyes, I cannot function as normal human being. Pray for me. I need my well-earned and badly-desired B grade inshallah.

A Letter to All of My Friends

I just realized that I have lost many friends along the way.
A couple of weeks ago, I was randomly surfing Facebook when I came upon a very familiar name, a very familiar face. I saw pictures of someone I once considered to be one of my best friends. It was his graduation ceremony and I felt guilty that I did not even know he was graduating this semester. It has been a few years actually since we last talked. Sure, sometimes we meet by chance in places around Jeddah because it’s a small city but all we do is exchange numbers and promise to get together later but we never do. Someone has probably decided that it is not worth the effort to make that call. That someone is most likely me.
Today I was scrolling down my contacts list in my mobile phone and I, very similarly to the first story, came upon a name that I had not called in ages. I pressed dial but no one answered. I felt a rush of guilt within me because I don’t even remember the last time I talked to this person. She is a good friend who was always there for me when I needed her but this year, for some reason, I failed to call or message back way too many times.
Do you see a regular pattern here? That is what I do. Every New Year’s Eve I promise myself that next year I’m going to be better. I’m going to remember to call back. I’m going to remember to say Happy Birthday when someone’s birthday comes. I’m going to keep in touch and I will not allow myself to get distracted by life and college and all of my personal issues. Every year, I fail miserably.
I keep telling myself that I am busy and it’s understandable but I, more than anyone else, know that it’s just a stupid excuse. No one is ever really busy; it’s all just a matter of different priorities. I always say that. I want to make my friends a priority higher than it is now but I don’t know why it just keeps slipping back.
What’s even more painful about all these losses is that most of them are unjustified! We just drift away, we grow up, we get busy with life’s demands and we seek different things. We just cease being friends.
Every time I remember the names and faces of all the people that have passed by my life, I feel blessed. Each and every one of you has made my life more colorful, more joyful and most importantly, more meaningful. I hope that I have left on your life a fraction of the sweet impression you have left on mine.
Finally, I just want to apologize for not always being the friend I should and want to be. I don’t want to promise that I am going to change right from this moment because I don’t even know if I can keep that promise. However, I can promise you this; once a friend, always a friend and even after many years have passed, you can always call me and ask me for anything and I’ll be more than happy to hear your voice and to offer all the help I can.
I love you all, and you can take that as you may.

The future doesn’t seem so bright at the moment

We had a meeting today with the Dean of International Medical Students at Tufts University, which is located in Boston, USA, and ranks as the 28th college in the states. However, all I got out of the meeting was that, basically, our chances of doing our post-graduate training in America are slim. Not that I didn’t know that fact before but seeing the numbers and everything today just made it more real to me.

As much as I love medicine and really hope to become an excellent doctor, I feel that we have been screwed bad. Medical students are without a doubt in my mind the most under appreciated students in this country.

We get 990 Riyals every month from the university which is something I know we’re privileged to have because most students around the world don’t get that but I do feel that it is unfair that we’re being equalized with students of other colleges who get the same amount of money. We should get more because we have much more expenses! Each year I spend at least 1000 Riyals on books, that is of course I get only the essentials and required ones! Most of the time I have to go and purchase more because I need to learn and understand more about the subjects and topics we’re taking not to mention books about things that aren’t included in our curriculum but are beneficial to me nonetheless as a medical student. Of course don’t forget to add the million pages we have to photocopy from different books, doctors’ presentations and lecture notes. The instruments that we use are expensive and we need to have our own. My ophthalmoscope/Otoscope cost me about 2000 Riyals to get! And the most important thing we miss out on, in my opinion, is the many conferences and courses that take place through out the year and all require money to attend! Many times I have to be selective and I don’t go to all the symposiums and conferences that I would like because it would leave me flat broke if I did! Attendance fees rank from 50-500 usually but of occasionally you have the special courses that are priced with thousands due to expensive experts and materials used. I don’t want to talk about going for a summer training program and doing elective clerk ships abroad and its cost because that is already cancelled out of my mind even though I would do anything to have such an opportunity.

However, it is all fine. I knew what i had signed up when I got into medicine in hopes that the future will be more rewarding financially. We were SCREWED big time when we learned while in our 3rd year and practically too late to change directions, that the internship monthly paycheck has been decreased from 10700 into 5900 Riyals which is almost half what it used to be! Some people think that interns should be thankful they’re getting money to begin with because technically they’re still not doctors but rather doctors under training. What they don’t know that interns are the slaves of each department. They do all of the grunt work in addition to learning and mastering their clinical skills. Interns don’t usually have a social life due to the exhausting work regimen they go through. Just imagine what it would be like to be On-Call 4 nights every month, which is the minimum and could easily be raised into 6-8 depending on the hospital’s needs. Your regular working hours are from 8-5 each day. 10700 wasn’t even enough to begin with! How come can they even decrease it? The interns have similar expenses to the ones I’ve listed above for students in addition to a few more. Interns start applying for their post-graduate training which requires a good amount of money because if you intend to go abroad, you have to pay for the applications and different exams you must sit in and the travel and accommodation expenses to do interviews at different hospitals around the world.

You cannot change some one’s expected paycheck while they’re stuck in half the way! You should make it clear to new students that you’ll be studying your ass off for 6 horrendous years then suffer in internship for only this little amount of money. Those who who chose medicine based on future expectations have been gravely wronged by such decisions. It is simply unfair using any logic. It’s not like there is a cash deficiency in the kingdom!

As if that wasn’t enough, they decided to unify the salaries of residents in the kingdom to 10700 Riyals. So for 5-6 years after you graduate your salary is fixed to 10700. The reason for doing this they say is to make it fair for everyone! Some hospitals used to pay residents more than others in other hospitals and those who got paid less complained and therefore the great Saudi Commission for Health Specialities came up with this great solution decreasing every one’s salary to a fixed number!

Believe me, when I entered medicine, money wasn’t my biggest concern but in the end, money does matter and if you don’t feel you are getting what you deserve then your performance will surely deteriorate. Everyone needs financial security and this world has become really expensive to live in. The inflation is burning everybody and instead of raising salaries, they’re going down.

Moving on to another related topic, positions. I, being one of the top 10 percent of my class, should at least have some confidence that I will get accepted in whichever hospital and speciality program I desire following my graduation. That is not the case. You see, in this place we have an infestation of thing called Wasta. It is always who you know, who are your connections that will help you get the position rather than your CV and work alone. The positions available here in Jeddah aren’t many and medicine is very competitive and everyone knows someone. So you see, it’s not as simple as you might think.

The jewel that we all dreamt about when we were first accepted into medical school is going abroad to do our residency and fellowships, etc. The entire world has become overcrowded and increasingly competitive and we see our friends currently in their internship year struggling to get acceptance from Canada or else where. The fact is, chances are getting less by the day. The Dean whom we met today told us that within 10 years at the most, America will have too many medical students of its own that positions for international ones and foreigners will be almost nonexistent.

Need I get into the expenses of getting married, God forbid I ever think of doing that early in my career?

So you see why I’ve been rather down and unwilling to update my blog lately, of course this is not the only reason because I’m having some problems at home but it just adds to the mix. This year is the hardest one of all my years so far and I think I’m running out of energy and I’m tired. I feel frustrated and angry and the finals are 2 months away but I need to start preparing from now if I wanted to achieve a decent B+. Of course, an A is illogical to go after because the effort required to get it is simply inhuman. I just want to say Alhamdellah and hopefully all of this hard work and effort won’t go into waste, at least in the afterlife. God be with all of us and rewards what is better than this earlthy life has to offer.

New Year resolutions, anyone?

1. Study more.
naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. loooooool I study hard enough :P

2. Get a six pack.
This one’s from last year’s list but I can see it happening this year inshallah!

3. Catch up on movies and TV shows.
I feel like I’m way behind lol I need to designate a couple of hours a week for this!

4. Get on with my pending books list.
I think I have 12 books or so that I didn’t read yet. I barely have time to read medical ones!

5. Get more organized.
I’m one of those messy people! It’s been working just fine before but lately it hasn’t!

6. Start asking about others.
I have this bad habit of not calling or messaging my friends. I simply fail to keep in touch.

7. Learn to play the guitar.
This one’s been on my list for years now! I really intend to cross it off this year inshallah in the summer.

8. Take French language courses.
Apparently self learning isn’t really benficial :P I have to take formal courses.

9. Get my story published.
I have to finish editing it first lol

10. Take more chances.
Better regret something you did rather than regret something you didn’t. Isn’t that what they say?

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
2008 Please be good to us!

Questions

Do you ever get tired of doing the right thing all the time? Do you ever get tempted to do the wrong thing if only once? Does that rather thin line seem to invite you to cross it? Do you wonder what does it feel like if you quit thinking of consequences and just behaved as you desire? Would you regret it? Would you feel bad? Would you feel good? Would it change you? How do others seem so thoughtless in their actions? Don’t you find that the harder you stick to your boundaries, the more temptations call for you from the other side? How come doing what’s right isn’t appreciated these days? Does it hold no value to make the decision every single day to be a good man? Am I thinking too much? Do these questions have an answer?