A Letter to All of My Friends

I just realized that I have lost many friends along the way.
A couple of weeks ago, I was randomly surfing Facebook when I came upon a very familiar name, a very familiar face. I saw pictures of someone I once considered to be one of my best friends. It was his graduation ceremony and I felt guilty that I did not even know he was graduating this semester. It has been a few years actually since we last talked. Sure, sometimes we meet by chance in places around Jeddah because it’s a small city but all we do is exchange numbers and promise to get together later but we never do. Someone has probably decided that it is not worth the effort to make that call. That someone is most likely me.
Today I was scrolling down my contacts list in my mobile phone and I, very similarly to the first story, came upon a name that I had not called in ages. I pressed dial but no one answered. I felt a rush of guilt within me because I don’t even remember the last time I talked to this person. She is a good friend who was always there for me when I needed her but this year, for some reason, I failed to call or message back way too many times.
Do you see a regular pattern here? That is what I do. Every New Year’s Eve I promise myself that next year I’m going to be better. I’m going to remember to call back. I’m going to remember to say Happy Birthday when someone’s birthday comes. I’m going to keep in touch and I will not allow myself to get distracted by life and college and all of my personal issues. Every year, I fail miserably.
I keep telling myself that I am busy and it’s understandable but I, more than anyone else, know that it’s just a stupid excuse. No one is ever really busy; it’s all just a matter of different priorities. I always say that. I want to make my friends a priority higher than it is now but I don’t know why it just keeps slipping back.
What’s even more painful about all these losses is that most of them are unjustified! We just drift away, we grow up, we get busy with life’s demands and we seek different things. We just cease being friends.
Every time I remember the names and faces of all the people that have passed by my life, I feel blessed. Each and every one of you has made my life more colorful, more joyful and most importantly, more meaningful. I hope that I have left on your life a fraction of the sweet impression you have left on mine.
Finally, I just want to apologize for not always being the friend I should and want to be. I don’t want to promise that I am going to change right from this moment because I don’t even know if I can keep that promise. However, I can promise you this; once a friend, always a friend and even after many years have passed, you can always call me and ask me for anything and I’ll be more than happy to hear your voice and to offer all the help I can.
I love you all, and you can take that as you may.

3 thoughts on “A Letter to All of My Friends”

  1. Hi there!
    I have come across your blog. Very good posts you have made. (At least for me). You know, I belong to completely different culture.., but you know what? I (like all my far away to be Muslims friends) have the same “problems”. Moreover, you know what? We are “on the same wave” – I understand your way of thinking which not differs from not muslim’s one. We have the same blood – we are mankind! We pray to the same God, but in different languages. So what?… We have the same faith, but different religions. Faith is talking to God. Religion is culture or, in other words, politics… We can be united in faith, but never in politics. Every one has his own home (country) and, as a result, his own politics. I cannot love your home (country-> culture-> religion->politics) more than mine. So you do. By this post, I would love to deliver a message to us all: “Be who you are and be that well”! Have a nice day. Your anonymous friend from a far away.

  2. Bassem Dear
    I loooooooove what you just wrote!
    and it’s just true! Time Flys away!
    and I end up hating myself!
    and the weird part is that I actually miss them and I love them too!!

    this post is not cheesy! it’s just beautiful 🙂

  3. Anonymous, losing friendships is a universal problem that everyone seems to be suffering from these days. I loved your comment. It speaks the truth 🙂

    Rimyoleta, Yes.. we miss them and love them yet we don’t know what is happening with us. Thanks for the comment. You are a good friend.

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