I hide under the covers from the cruel world I’ll stay safe in here imagining you in my head In the silence I can easily hear your words “Good morning.” I usually smile but now I cry instead
My feet touch the cold floor and my brain awakes I robotically brush my teeth while staring at the mirror I look into my own eyes filled with despair and I break What good is my reflection standing alone without yours?
It’s a difficult task choosing the clothes to wear I stand there unable to make a simple decision I pick what’s closest to me and I just don’t care I remember how you always say it’s art and precision
I drink my coffee black and bitter like my soul I flip through the morning newspapers mindlessly I inhale my cigarette hoping the smoke will fill the hole Every day I keep repeating the cycle endlessly
I turn off the lights in the apartment and in me Today I will not go through the routine life motions This is my last morning, I seek the permanent dream With a smile and a sunny backdrop, I walk into the ocean